You've put me through physical, emotional, and psychological pain
Wounds that I've barely allowed to heal
You've ripped my heart out a million times
And I've casually handed it right back to you
Whyyy???
How had I allowed this?
I guess the beauty that I saw in you , I couldn't see in me
And I was blinded from the nastiness that you gave back,
You gifted me only a piece of yourself and I gladly accepted
Because my wide open heart wanted to fill in the cavities of yours
Though...You've taught me a lot
Without you, I wouldn't know that I shouldn't give my heart to just anyone
That I needed to love myself more than I loved you
Without you, I wouldn't know that as tender and fragile as I can be, that at the end of it all I would actually be able to breathe again
From you, I've learned that my significance is not measured by the attention you give.
Or lack there of...
I know that even though my light was dimmed, it still shined brighter than yours
I know that I can not fault you for me not loving myself enough
I've learned that my heart is far more flexible than the credit I give
That without you, I am a million times better
That without you, I am myself again
That without you, I am without grief, doubt, suspicion, insecurity...
Without you I am whole again
You broke my heart so that I could learn how to value it.