Growing & Glowing

Turtleneck & Skirt: Forever 21, Boots: J. Crew, Photography by: Jeremy St. Romain (Ig: @popejpaul )

“…Every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end.”

To start is to be done.

I am who I’ve become.

Another cycle around the sun.

Again, I have begun…

Seed to root,

Flesh of fruit,

My rind shields lies

and seeming untruths.

Body sacred,

Thoughts naked,

Controlled exposure,

Full disclosure.

Energy matched,

Emotions latched,

Relationships discerned,

Attention earned.

Beam light from within…

To end is to begin,

To lose is to win,

To be is to have already been.

Old patterns corrected,

Courage tested,

Opportunities manifested,

Future invested,

Spirit rested,

Home nested.

Glowing and growing.

Doing and pursuing.

Living the life that’s best for ME.

Becoming who I was meant to be.

To start is to be done.

I am who I’ve become

Another cycle around the sun

Again, I have begun…

- C. M. Hamilton

Personal Revolution

Photography by Brandon Joseph

“I need I need a revolution

My own revolution

My very own revolution

I need, I need a revolution

My own revolution

My personal revolution

Heartbreak is so hard to take

And I lay down in the bed that I make

Crying, crying, tears of change

Fighting, fighting, everyday

There must be a better way”

 - Ziggy Marley, Personal Revolution

There are sides of myself that I still don’t know.

There are sides of myself that still need to grow. 

The only constant is the inconsistency of my evolution. 

I’m learning the discomfort I have, plays a role in the story of my personal revolution

Isolation has been my comfort zone.

Alone is where I feel at home

This means getting through the pain that I carry.

Also means having to face some fears that I have buried. 

Alone I am my own lover, friend, and worst enemy.

My mind often juggles between the three. 

I can only trust, feel, or heal what’s inside of myself.

This is as much as I can balance, for the sake my health. 

My heart has fought through many wars

And repaired itself from many sores.

My soul was born before my first breath

I hope it will continue to live beyond my timely death.

My eyes have seen the pain and the glory

My words will be left to tell my story.

Transcribing these words from the depths of my feelings

Has been my saving grace throughout the process of my healing.

Addressing the issue, leads me closer towards the solution.

Self-restoration is leading me closer towards my personal revolution. 

-C. M. Hamilton

A Very Vivid Dream

I had a dream a couple of nights ago that involved a beautiful gigantic speckled black & white butterfly gracefully soaring over me. Naturally, I was mesmerized. As I moved to take a closer look, the butterfly then suddenly transformed into a gigantic owl. This gigantic owl then proceeded to charge toward & attacked me...After waking up like  I thought about what it could possibly mean. 

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From the little knowledge that I have on butterflies, I know that in dreams they can symbolize transformation. Also, that the larger the butterfly, "the greater impression I will make in a social situation." 

As for the owl...the research I've found so far states that the owl [in the context of my dream] can symbolize someone in my life that has taken keen observation of me or is keeping secrets from me. "In Owl dreams, an Owl suddenly bolting into flight symbolizes that Owls, and people, can be reckless in their pursuit of something." 

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This dream could mean a number of things. As I'm still translating, I'm starting to be more mindful of the company that I keep. Your personal environment is a reflection of what you're putting out or allowing into your life. There may be people around that are not serving you in the healthiest way. Sometimes we need to carefully curate our spaces so that we can give ourselves the breathing room we need to grow and be our best selves. Moving forward, the only kind of relationships that I'm allowing are restorative relationships. I want to feel strengthened and supported by the company that I keep, as I intend to offer the same to them.

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If there's anyone that is more experienced in interpreting dreams, please share your thoughts. I'd love to hear other perspectives on this.

I Am Present

Dress: Thrited, Shoes: Top Shop, Coin Ring: Wired and Stoned

Photography by: Sharita A. Sims 

Present.

I am here.

I am heard.

I am her.

I am aware.

I am everywhere.

I am here and there

Being present is a present.

A gift to myself.

Checking in.

Ode to self care.

Sitting with my thoughts.

Letting myself feel.

Giving myself permission to heal.

Freeing my mind.

Chakras aligned.

Maneuvering through. 

Staying true.

Relieving the pressure.

No scale to measure.

I am me.

I am she.

I am valid.

I am present.